Something I feel...

Being a stereotypical "nice guy" has plenty of ups and downs. Despite how we appear on the outside, many of us suffer with internal struggles. Mostly, in my opinion, I would say that the majority of the inner turmoil revolves around the battle of feeling that we will always be alone. No matter how much love and support we are able to give someone, we are still viewed as that one special friendship that is simply too valuable to risk losing. Too often we find ourselves in situations, giving support to those that need it...a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen or maybe even some money when the bills start to pile up and the outside world comes knocking for collection. We are that one piece of solidarity in your world, an unchanging variable that you can always count on, always rely on and always turn to in a time of need. We listen to the problems, offer kind words of guidance and comfort in times of need. But no matter how we handle the situations or how many times we make ourselves available, we always end up back in the same place we started. We are almost like your favorite animal you leave at home when you go to work. We love you, cuddle with you, give you all the attention you could want and then when we have fulfilled our purpose, we go back to waiting...waiting for that moment when we will be needed and wanted again. If nothing else I would implore you to look closer at some of your own relationships with friends in your life. Do you know someone like me? Do you know someone who has ALWAYS been there for you but sits silently in the shadows waiting for that day when you will notice them? Take this chance to let them know that the things they do for you don't go unnoticed. Relationships will come and go, but true friendship is something you can't find on every street corner.

Keep that in mind...

First Entry...

It's currently 3:20am and as usual, I can't sleep. I've been thinking a lot about my life lately, what it means to me, where I want to see myself and how I plan to get there. I always had these idea's about my life, visions of myself as an older man with a family and I always could see it being something I wanted more then anything else in this world. But it's funny how life can take your dreams and hope and crush it in the blink of an eye. If I have learned anything from my time on this earth it would be that not everything can be how we envisioned. Sometimes disappointment, heartache, let downs and disbelief are apart of what we have to face. But then it just wakes you up to the good stuff you have been missing all along. Recently, my life has changed into something I didn't ask for or ever dream it would be. I am so very tired of coming home to no one, to an empty room that feels more like a prison then a home. I decided to start this blog in an effort to get some of my thoughts out there in the open and possibly give insight to what it is REALLY like to live life as a "nice guy" that most women dream of finding. I'm hoping to make frequent posts as to how I see life from day to day, the struggles, hardships, dreams, ambitions, and whatever else may come along.