First Entry...

It's currently 3:20am and as usual, I can't sleep. I've been thinking a lot about my life lately, what it means to me, where I want to see myself and how I plan to get there. I always had these idea's about my life, visions of myself as an older man with a family and I always could see it being something I wanted more then anything else in this world. But it's funny how life can take your dreams and hope and crush it in the blink of an eye. If I have learned anything from my time on this earth it would be that not everything can be how we envisioned. Sometimes disappointment, heartache, let downs and disbelief are apart of what we have to face. But then it just wakes you up to the good stuff you have been missing all along. Recently, my life has changed into something I didn't ask for or ever dream it would be. I am so very tired of coming home to no one, to an empty room that feels more like a prison then a home. I decided to start this blog in an effort to get some of my thoughts out there in the open and possibly give insight to what it is REALLY like to live life as a "nice guy" that most women dream of finding. I'm hoping to make frequent posts as to how I see life from day to day, the struggles, hardships, dreams, ambitions, and whatever else may come along.